I have been reading on the internet about that bloke in Austria who kept his daughter locked up for 24 years and fathered 7 of her children. How the hell did he get away with it for so long? It's disgusting. That poor girl must have been through hell and as for the poor children. I just can't believe his wife claims she knew nothing about it! She must have known something was strange. What the hell did she think he was going to the cellar for? I would think there is no way she could not have known something. The ignorance of some people. He should be put away for life because he took away the rights of his own child for 24 years and not only that he sexually abused her. Why should he have any rights left?

I've had a good week this week. The mother in law has been nice because my partner told her he was thinking of sending us home. She was going through one of her lets stop talking routine. After that little threat from my partner she was like a different person. She got me flowers, she's cooked food. She still calls my name every 10 seconds but I can ignore that if she don't make my life hell. I'm not getting my hopes up about it lasting. If there's one thing lifes taught me it's you can only trust yourself.

Spoke to the solicitor this week and she said that what she looked at so far from the papers I'd sent her was ok and she's sending us the papers and application this week. So hopefully within the next 2 weeks the application will be in and then It's just a waiting game. Again though I'm not getting my hopes up. God I hope the embassy pull their fingers out.

Has anybody got any tips to stop my hair falling out. I had blond put in and now its coming out in handfuls. Luckily I got no bald patches but I would really like it to stop. So any tips would be greatfully recieved. Thats all I need is to start going bald on top of everything else. LOL!!!

hiya folks, I haven't written on here for a couple of days, I haven't really felt like writing. I'm still on a bit of a downer, things are getting worse not better. I've been arguing with my partner for no real reason over petty stupid things. I'm being ignored by my mother in law again because she had a go at me about losing weight and I got pissed off becuse every day she does it and apparently that means she can ignore me. I know I need to lose weight but she don't need to point out the obvious everyday.

We still didn't hear from this fucking solicitor about this visa. She said she'll contact me within the next week, well it's been a week and surprise surprise nothing. Why do solicitors take the piss, their all full of shit.............. Because I love wasting my life waiting around for her to pull her finger out her arse. I'll be phoning her today and if she's funny with me like she has been the last couple of times I spoke to her, she'll feel the sharp end of my tounge.

I spoke to my Mum the other night and when she got home from work the county council had stuck a big sticker on the front door with super glue to the glass saying that they need to do a check on the gas fire and if they come and theres no answer they'll force entry. Now last year we had our fire checked and they deemed it as dangerous and capped the gas because the tiles at the side weren't secure because they knocked them off while they were putting the new fire in. Every year we have the fire checked and 6 years the fires been dangerous. They said that the fire was leaking dangerous gases, I assume carbon monoxide. It took the council 5 months to come and put a new fire surround in, during winter and with a baby in the house and after numerous phone calls. That was just the fire surround. It took another 2 months for them to put the gas back on. And now the cheek of the twats. They come a make threats to force entry after last year. What a bunch of dick heads. There just a load of jumped up pricks. I don't know who the fuck they think they are!

well what a week I've had. I haven't been out for 3 or 4 days, I've just been inside sat at the laptop on Facebook or here all day (sad I know) the furthest I've been is sat on the balcony in the sun. Was feeling really positive the other night but I'm on a downer again. I got no patience is my problem. I'm bored out my brain. I'm gonna go mad. The dickhead of a solicitor hasn't phoned yet, probably because she hasn't got the fricking contact number.

I did have a laugh tonight, I was on msn to my Nan quite happily typing and eating popcorn when the chair broke underneath me. I pissed myself laughing. God knows how it happened, probably from my fat arse where I put the 5 kilos i lost back on again. I know it's my own fault. My mother in law felt the need to go around telling everyone the chair broke under my enormous weight. Very embarrasing but also very funny. I had popcorn in my bra, all over the floor, all in the bed. It made me giggle and also give the folks at home a good laugh. I'm a great source of entertainment.

Turkey hasn't been all bad, so I thought I would upload some pic of the great sights and places I've seen

I can't believe my other half. He wanted to look at my blog so instead of asking me to look at it he went and blocked my password and then went and changed it. Why? Why didn't he just ask me to look at it? He's sly aswell he did it when I was sleeping. What was he hoping to find?

Some good news today the visas at the solicitors, we're just waiting for them to send it back for us to hand in at the embassy. Hopefully soon it'll be UK here we come. I can't wait.

Some other great news my other halfs brother can't get his phone opened because it come from Germany and is registered in his sisters name, he thought he could register it in my name but i already registered my phone. Haha life's a bitch, it serves him right for being the lazy prick that he is!!!!!!!!!!

I believe in angels, might sound crazy but I do. I got a book with all different spells for all different things to ask the angels for and I have made spells for certain things. This book says u can call on the angels anytime and what u wish for will be (not immediately obviously) but anything I've asked for hasn't happened so do angels really exsist? I love the thought of angels out there somewhere but where are they? Why don't we see them?

aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! some one please help me I'm so bored. I miss home so much. I can't believe I'm missing all the TV, Lost, Americas next top model, the apprentice, Gavin and Stacey, all the soaps. I miss my music, I'M SO BORED. And don't even talk about the food LOL!!!!!

ok so heres the question, do we ever find the happiness we been searchıng for and so hoping to find? Two yrs ago I went through the worst time of my life so far. My partner was deported from the country when I was 2 months pregnant and at the same time I lost my job, leaving me with no money and no hope. I was lucky enough to have family who helped me to buy the things i needed for my new baby and have the help and support I needed from them and without my mum I don't know if I would have survived. But 2 yrs on the only thing that has changed is I have my daughter and my partner, don't get me wrong I count my blessings everyday. All I want is to get my partner back, have a house of our own and enough money to survive, I don't want the world. So it leaves me asking the question do we ever find the happiness we been searching for and hoping to find?

OMG!!!!!!! I had to laugh my mother in law had to inform me some woman I dont even know asked her was I pregnant, pregnant? Cheeky bitch I might be big but pregnant? LOL!!!!!! It's a good job I can laugh at myself or I just might be insulted.

Have you ever felt like you passed through to a parallel universe? Well thats exactly what happened to me a couple of months ago when I arrived in Turkey to help my partner get back into the country. I have landed in mother in law hell and I must have some of the worst luck on the planet. It all started when I had been here for 2 weeks or more when I fell over and broke my little finger hence having my arm put in cast up to my elbow and pulling the muscles in my neck in the process. This wasn't enough for me folks no no no I decided what I really needed was to have the shits for a week. Picture it arm in cast, pulled neck and running back and forward the toilet unable to wipe my own backside. Could things get any worse? Of course they could, I manage to insult my mother in law without opening my mouth and was ignored for 3 days, I have managed to do this another 4 times since being here, I tell you peeps thats some talent I have. Honestly you couldn't write the script. I have survived on a diet of couscous, rice, pasta and salad, which let me tell you is not the best diet for an over weight gal like myself. I've been resisting an over bearing urge to knock my mother in law out with a rolling pin and if she calls my name again for no good reason or tells me i need to loose weight, I'll have good reason to hit her with the rolling pin. So İ have decided to vent my stress and frustration writing my own blog. We are in the middle of the stressful process of sorting out a visa to the UK and as most people know the home office aren't the fastest people in the world. So God only knows how much longer I'm going to be stuck in this 'HELL' on earth. So I have set myself a mission to loose weight and get that bloody visa. It's like comedy of errors with no comedy. Any words of wisdom will be greatfully recieved.